For the last 4 years I’ve been trying my hardest to work towards a goal. I’ve fought myself mentally, and those around me verbally. I’ve learned a great deal about myself, and have grown as a man, and as a broadcaster.

I’ve worked to make broadcasting a career. I’ve given everything I have, obsessed over the thought sometimes, and have regrettably turned opportunities, people, friends, family and sometimes what should matter most to me, away.

Today on BroPlays we reached that goal. We hit 1,000 subscribers. We, as a community, are 1,000 subscribers and 70,000 followers strong.

When I started broadcasting I wanted to make this a career from day one, I went against all advice that I give now (which is why I give this advice now). I obsessed over the thought. I started streaming on my mom’s Dell Inspiron 3000 in her bedroom when she went to work, and I was hooked. I bought a PC a few weeks later and took the $400 in my account to try and make something of myself on Twitch. (It was called JTV at this time.) 

I was 17 at the time so I pretty much had no idea of what responsibility is, and pair that together with not really having too much parental guidance I didn’t really know what the hell I was doing in any aspect of life. The only thing I knew was that I wanted to play video games for a living in front of thousands.

In retrospect, it was unhealthy. It was something that tore me apart, day after day. I didn’t know what I was doing wrong, I tasted a small grasp of success and I kept grasping at more. As the years went on I secluded myself to a room and did nothing but stream. I got engaged believe it or not, to my highschool sweetheart. Then broke it off a year later. I went through family struggles, my mom trying to kick me out, my extended family not being too close either. I had no friends, my family wanted me out and the only thing I knew was streaming.

To say that I’ve grown as a man and a person in front of the camera is an understatement.

All that time, I thought I could do it alone. I thought it was my hard work and determination that would get me where I needed to be. I thought that if I put in the hours, if I tried to be funny enough, if I was good enough at games, I could it alone.

I was wrong. I was so wrong. I couldn’t have done this without any of you. I couldn’t be who I am, and I couldn’t feel how I feel without the incredible support of the incredible people that stand around me, not behind me. When I started BroPlays a year and a half ago I wanted a professional show that I could put on TV one day, with an exemplary community surrounding it.

I’ve reached the goal of having that community. Not with 1,000 subscribers, because we have had this community far before that. But I wouldn’t be able to reach my goal without all of you.

I want to thank every single person who has ever given me the time of day. Even if you aren’t my biggest fan, if I’ve done you a wrong, or if you don’t find me entertaining. You gave me your time, if even a minute. Your time is what I respect, and what I never want to waste.

I admire all of you, for being so generous and kind. Not just to me, but to all of the broadcasters you watch on this website. I was able to reach my goal after struggling much less than some out there might be, and I know that there are people out there working to much the same end.

Taters, you are all some of the most amazing people I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. I say this and truly believe it, because it takes a village to do what we do. The chat environment on BroPlays is one of the most welcoming, friendly, yet open and non exclusive environments I have ever seen. I am so thankful for all of you.

This past year since moving out I’ve been able to grow even more as a person. I’ve been able to find a new side of myself, and been able to experience what being responsible and dependable actually feels like. I’m more open, more ambitious and more comfortable than I’ve ever been. I never wanted to smile because I was self conscious of my looks, I never wanted to tell a joke because I didn’t know if I was funny enough, and I was terrified of being judged in everything I do.

With creating a platform and foundation for an amazing community of beautiful individuals like all of you, what I’ve really done was create a platform to just be myself. So thank you, for accepting me, and for hopefully enjoying my show.

 

Thank you so much for 1,000 subscribers, and thank you so much for being who you are, that allows me to be who I am.

 

Here’s to 1, 5, 10, 100 or 1000 more.

Jay Brotatoe – @twitchbrotatoe – BroPlays – BrotatoeTV